corey spears

how i got here

two spheres of light dance in my open hands
the light is bright and glowing blue
it leaves me and runs to you
Now I follow its trail
I am here and I am there
you have one lucky place
I must stay mobile in search
You have my light and its dancing with your own
Unsure of its owner you enoy it whilst in wonder
I will one day claim what led me to you
until then its yours in immeasurable quantities
brighter still
without warning or even attention I will stumble
into its path and notice its hue
Telling me once more that its been sent to another
or that my quest is now over and its again in my palms
and glows as if it never left.

I could say the smell was unpleasant-
if not for all the other factors at my hideout.
The pelican who can't decide where to stay and lands in
three different places before flying away.
the black and irridescent gnats that gnaw at my flesh laughing that
its december.
A gentle wind that pulls my hair from where I like it.
barnacles are holding to docks waiting for the tide to return so
they don't look so grim.
sea grass and marsh enjoy their quietness in hopes that spring
will take its time this year.
My dog nervously paces the landing because that
fish that keeps cutting the water is daring him to
get wet.
I tell him no.
all of it unique to this area but so simple in its beauty.
For a moment I want someone here with me to
hold their hand and take this in.
I'm too complete to want more from now.

worthy and free
malliable
my name is truth
repeat after me
your mantra from now until
contemplate how still and permanent my gaze is
blue, sometimes ice
always preserving how perfect and limitless each moment is as it opens itself to me
I smile

No net

I could not predict a more sacred love
one that takes all that dared to be called love,
and reminds it that this new one will permeate with
a force that nothing should be compared to.
now
then
tomorrow
the magic you've cast makes no delineation in time.
a place with nothing flat
everything rich, vibrant, flowing
Here we go from shore to shore
love navigates what little control we've given without grudge.
how smooth, how perfect
No one will find us. Nothing but light and
the smell of sea air is left behind.
Breathing life into all we touch.
what was wilted is now in bloom.
like heaven.
like the sea.
Fall as if heaven and the ocean are your net.
They are.

one for GEMINI brilliance

I try to open it up once more
"mystery" you say
it haunts me like a clock
Is it the unknown that reels me in
against tides you fear will wash you
I was told no
though we know your heart spoke yes
Bleeding through you like open wounds
it hurts and its supposedly healed
The innocence you chase already belongs to you
A bit easy I'd say, and without mystery most surely
Magic that you cast on your instrument that
is slightly out of tune will garner followers
with open ears though incapable of hearing, they
will listen with blindness never knowing your message
Like only seeing light without concept of the stars
green and dark with all of your labels
spinning tales out of smoke and dreams
captivate me, allure me
I hear your voice,I see your light
I know your brilliance.

touched

It surprised me
the age wouldn't have told you.
certainly not the experience,
I cared for you long ago.
I tortured you recently.
I love you now. Is that why you
appear to me in such splendor?
or have you and my mind made an agreement?
I want to take care of you.
I will let others touch you if you need.
I'll fill you and empty you.
Navigate me to hearts since you've stolen many intentions
that were sincere but powerless of your need to be loved
or at least touched.

Next 2 me

I will sleep so deep and wish that you were here, but for now you are...
next to me
peacefully dreaming, holding me.
feeling soft skin against you with firm
muscle hardening us both
dive into my mouth with your tongue, seeking ,pulling
breathe my air, a sexual gasp; I exhale your breath
sucking in your strawberry flavored tongue.
licking flesh, the scent of us swirls in the air
like perfume.."do you feel that?" I ask and
the response is "ya.." No designs for such
things can be drawn up much to your chagrin.
Happening out of nowhere they continue down
to heaving chests and welcoming stomachs, kissing
stroking. Taking me in your hands pulling out
a fantasy while putting in your bend.
I lay atop of you feeling you beneath me
between my legs; sticky and warm; relieved entirely
At times there are no words just long gazes into
pools of blue that keep you soft and cool.
Here, next to me.